Long walk last night, we went out early to celebrate the waning daylight one last time. Excited to see that my favorite hostess/manager at a local spot is working on opening her own restaurant so I stopped and chatted with her for a few minutes. Another lady thought she needed to adopt Summer then and there (no, not how it works), and then i was harassed by two guys in a huge truck that catcalled me. I was annoyed and then freaked out a little when they came around again. Was my two friends and they did it to annoy me after spotting the dogs. We’re all good, they’re like my big brothers and I dish it out to them on the regular, I just didn’t recognize them. Hugs, kisses and pets for the doggies, we went on our way.
Today we box up the Halloween decorations. I don’t think I’m going to wash the car today, not feeling it, but we’ll see. I need a solid couple of days off but work isn’t stopping. Miss BF a lot, honestly, this feels like a full on deployment rather than family crisis, but I’m admittedly being selfish because I’ve done the same under similar circumstances except that mine ended after about 6 weeks.
You have to take care of the body you have now. All the smoking, drinking and other stuff you do in your youth may or may not leave you untouched. We’re dealing with strokes, seizures, macular degeneration along with dementia all in one human almost all at once. It’s a lot and BF is the family caretaker/fixer of broken things. Except you can’t fix everything sometimes. I worry about the stress, but the good part of this is that he’s taken up walking and working on reclaiming his own fitness after a long talk we had one night. I got the wake-up with my grandmother and again with my mother, he’s living it now. For clarity, BF is fine, he’s home taking care of things.
If that reads funny, it’s because i wrote and deleted some things i don’t want out in the universe and I’m journaling, not writing a book that has to be perfect. That, in itself, is hard for me to do so i guess I’m growing. Pbbbt.
Numbers are fine, it’s a fluctuation, the overall trend is down, I didn’t really eat dinner last night, but i ate a huge salad late in the afternoon followed by berries and some other stuff i need to double-check that i logged. Blob up, everything else about the same, stuff to do on this first day of the darkness. We just need to make it through 10 March when they fix the clocks again.
This entry reads much heavier than it really is, sometimes it’s best to get the feelings out in words so they don’t live in your head. Holidays are almost here, Christmas lights and parties will begin soon, I do love that part of winter along with the snow. Added a pic of Thursday’s sunset because I need to remind myself of how glorious the skies are this time of year.
Press on, press on feels like the best motivator today. Weekend rules, enjoy the day. Turning on some loud and happy music to shift the mood. Dance on!
Edit: then FS told me I’m gaining weight at a rapid pace. Bite me.
WEIGHT 160.4 lb
BMI 32.4
FAT MASS 65.5 lb
LEAN MASS 94.9 lb
WATER MASS 66.4 lb
BONE MASS 4.8 lb
MUSCLE MASS 90.0 lb
