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07 Juni 2018

The MRI last Friday was excruciating. I have an abdominal hernia that used to be small but this weight loss has revealed that it has grown. When they began to slide me into the machine my stomach touched the top of it and i couldn't get a deep breath so they had to slide me out. I became upset because I've been waiting more than two years for this test. When i asked if there was any way to lower the table, they said no but then had the idea to remove the pads on the table. So i then lay on the bare table and i fit in with room to spare. I was in there for several songs and a couple of d.j. announcements all the while the pain in my low back and hips growing worse and worse. I asked them how much longer thinking it should be almost done and was told 12 minutes which i wasn't sure i could bear because the pain was beginning to make me sick. They did something to make it only three minutes and twenty seconds longer, for which i am grateful.

I wasn't sure i was going to be able to get off the table. I can't describe the depth of the pain and the waves on top of waves of both pain and nausea that came over me when I sat up and the feeling came back to the middle of my back. They wheeled me to the waiting room and I took some medicine and it began to ease up for a bit but by the next day and for these last several days it's been pretty consistently bad with little relief.

I've been calling my doctor's office every day asking about the results. She got them Tuesday afternoon. Her nurse called me today. She told me that the MRI showed several abnormalities and instead of giving me the results, my doctor wants me to come in so she can talk to me about the results and discuss treatment - a word i find oddly disheartening. So i don't have definitive results yet but it doesn't sound ideal.

And early this morning my hospital bed decided it was no longer going to raise my head and i can't lie flat on it the way it is so not sure what tonight is gonna be like. I know I'm not going back to sleeping sitting up on the love seat though. I can't.

I hope y'alls' tomorrows look up.

ETA: Oh, My progress bar has changed from red to yellow. That's nice.

(14 Kommentare)

04 Juni 2018

I have so much i want to say and have for a few days but typing on this tablet can be tiresome. I also don't know whether to put multiple topics in the same post or make more than one post in the same day.

Intermittent Fasting share: I have discovered that seeing pictures or videos of food, even if it isn't the focus of what i am looking at, causes me to not only feel hungry but deeply hungry and the feeling only intensifies, not lessens, as long as those images are in view. However if i begin to watch something else that isn't food related, the hunger subsides. I've been doing IF a few weeks now and strong morning or night hunger was never a problem until i began watching day in the life type videos of people doing keto a couple of days ago.

If this is a cephalic response and the sight of food i can't even get to causes my insulin to rise and it is this strong in me, there's no wonder i am so insulin resistant. It's really the weirdest thing. However, to be kind to myself, I'm going to only watch those kind of videos and look at recipes during my feeding window and at night when i am fully sated.

I want to talk about last Friday, too, but it's going to have to wait.

(20 Kommentare)

01 Juni 2018

I'm sitting in the waiting room waiting for my MRI. We stopped at the hospital so i could weigh before we came here. I lost 17.9 pounds in the last 29 days. So it was right between my guess and MillaLite's guess :-)
I'm relieved to know I'm on track, right where i hoped i was heading and I've been making the right choices. I needed that validation.

Gewicht:	Bisher verloren:	Still to go:	Diät befolgt:
216,8 kg	47,2 kg	115,2 kg	Recht gut

(17 Kommentare) Verlust von 2,0 kg pro Woche

31 Mai 2018

I'm getting pretty anxious about weighing tomorrow, like panic attack anxious. A month is just far too long for me to wait between weigh ins when i am actively trying to lose weight. The front of my brain knows I've lost weight but the back part is second guessing dietary choices I've made even though I've had success both in the past before i had my son and in the two months preceding this last month. My palms are getting sweaty just typing this out. I'm also concerned about lying flat during my MRI tomorrow since my back pain is so intense when I'm flat on my back, but, honestly it's the weigh in that has me more discombobulated. I'm in pain all of the time. Pain i know all too well. It's my progress that feels like an unknown blank right now.

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27 Mai 2018

So, i really like things that contain cooked tomatoes such as spaghetti sauce, chili, ketchup, etc. But i very much dislike the taste of raw tomatoes. I've never tried a little cherry tomato before, only the regular size. Do they taste different/better?

My new doctor has found an MRI place that i can use so next Friday we'll be driving to Paducah so i can finally get my hip seen about. It's been a long time coming and considering how quickly she made it happen and how close the place is to our town, I'm confused why my other doctors couldn't schedule it. Anyway, that means i will be getting out next Friday so the wait to find out my new weight is now less than a week away. I can say, waiting a month between weigh ins when you're trying new things is difficult. It's a long time to wait to see if you're on the right track or need to tweak something. I know I've lost but I'm really curious to see how much. I think two weeks between weigh ins would be reasonable.

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